August, 3rd NinetyNine

I feel quite dizzy right now. It just take to much time and energy for me to understand how should I act in this fuckin' theatre. I'm sick of this life although it was not too bad after all. But I do sick of this life and all of the rutinities I have to do all the time which are not quite different from time to time. So .. Please God, tell me what should I do to get a better.. a much better life.
I just close my eyes and lay down to the ground. Try to think of nothing, then i'll be relax. That's what I call relax. I want it so bad.. that I couldn't ever say..
But every time I try, I failed, I can't relax... Noooooo !!!!!